Today is a great day! The wind is in my hair, and the sun is shining on my face. The season is changing, and I’m not just talking about the weather. I have been silent for most of the past few months, and honestly it wasn’t on purpose. It’s just before I knew it days turned into months, and nothing had been written. Today that is changing.
For the first time in a very long time, I actually feel like myself again. I actually feel free to be me. I don’t know about you, but sometimes circumstances and situations can make you feel a little off balance. I’ve been in that place for a while now, survival mode. That mode where literally you keep your nose down to the grind so much, you don’t take the time to look up and take in what’s happening around you. The seasons are changing and you don’t even know it, because you are focused on surviving.
Surviving what you ask? It could be surviving financially, emotionally, physically, or mentally. For each person, their “survival mode” could be different. I’m sure almost everyone understands the financial survival. You’re basically just trying to make ends meet. As my former Pastor would say, “You got more month left than you do money.” Now I think emotional and mental survival go hand and hand. Emotional survival can make you play Jedi mind tricks on your ownself sometimes; and sometimes you can get so emotionally over whelmed that you feel like you are going to suffer a mental break. Then there are times when mental survival simply can stand on its own. Sometimes you can be emotionally stable, but have so many things coming at you at one time, that mentally you become stressed and overwhelmed, again feeling like you may suffer a mental break. So to avoid all of the above you go into a numb place called, “Survival Mode.”
Today though, I am making a conscious effort to stop, look up, and take in what’s going on around me. I’m so glad that I am, because the season is changing in my life, and I don’t want to miss it. I don’t want to miss the chance to breathe easy. I don’t want to miss the opportunity to see just how much my children are growing and blossoming. Most of all, I don’t want to miss the chance to experience my own growth and development. I want to live and truly enjoy what life has to offer me. Despite how close or far my life seems to be from “my ideal” dreams, goals, and accomplishments, I am grateful for my life and the blessings that I have received. Could somethings have been done differently, absolutely! Could somethings have been better, absolutely! But, it doesn’t change the fact that I am still blessed. I can now say for sure that life is what you make it. There is an up and down side to everything, but its up to you which view you choose to focus on.
As always thank you for stopping by, remember as you go through your day to Be Friendly, Show Favor, and Give Love.
T Lynn Tate 